But God...

Ephesians 2:4-10

But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ – by grace you have been saved – and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.

But God… We all have them right? Those times in our walk with God where loving our Lord with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength seems effortless. Fully alive moments of success in relationship or service that makes our passion for God so real…our calling so clear…our ability to sacrifice so natural. Moments where we can almost hear our Father in heaven saying, “this is my son…my daughter…in them I am well pleased!” We actually feel the “immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.” But then, there are other times…times when love grows cold…times when each step stirs fear, indecision and doubt. They are seasons of death and darkness…seasons of the cross.

But God… This past year, our community in Glasgow has been walking through one such season. We have experienced brokenness in ways that we always hope as children of God we won’t have to. In many respects, we have watched as the ministry that God built has been slowly disassembled before our eyes. It is a season of asking many questions about our calling, our purpose and our reason to exist.

But God… It is in these times that it is the hardest to believe that he has not made a mistake… that “we are his workmanship”. It is in these times that it is the hardest to believe that we have a purpose… “good works, which God prepared beforehand”. It is in these times that it is hard to walk the steps laid out for us.

But God… It is a thought, an idea, which I hold in my mind and heart that fuels my passion in the hardest of times. It is as if Paul writes these words for me to show this crux moment between what was and what is. Between what has been and what will be. It is my Lord Jesus walking step by brutal step towards His greatest moment of darkness and His greatest gift of love.

But God… It stirs the heart in the deepest place. Could it be that God is still intimately and strategically moving in and out of our lives shaping and forming all that we are… fixing that which was broken… finding that which was lost… making us into what He has always dreamed we would be? Could it be that the weight of this world does not have to rest on my shoulders…but that it rests on the crucified shoulders of this “great love with which he loved us”?

But God…